You’re quickly slipping away
Soon to be free of your failing body
Unable to talk
Your face revealed the fear.
When just us, our eyes held
I told you not to be afraid
You squeezed my hand
Affirming our connection
We’ve always had a bond
Only a year apart
We were the quieter of the group
The first to unite when we became family.
Between ballet shoes and BMX bikes
At 9 and 10 I had a bit of a crush
Your chubby stage and curly perm
Quickly put an end to that.
When I was 16, we built my first car
Did that spark your passion
To someday have your own shop?
I’d like to believe that.
My favorite memories were a few years later
When we chose to spend time together
Along with our best friends
We traveled, dined and had fun adulting.
Now in your home, the place you chose to be
Our sisters join us and through the tears
The moment as our last together
As four siblings.
The vision that will forever stay in my mind
Our parents saying goodbye
They grasp to hang on to you
Their pain unbearable.
Your father comforts
He can’t stand you suffering
Does he see you in your current state?
Or you as a little boy?
You were aware of our presence
Eye contact and squeezing our hands
Miracles you hear about
When life fades away.
You left us quickly
Free of pain
We watched from inside when they took you away
Outside our parents stood watch, side by side
Until the very last moment
When you left their sight.